Today is Larry's 68th Birthday. I can barely believe that he is that age. I know that age is only a Number...but he has never seemed nor acted his real age. I came to realize that we are both aging. I am getting that "old lady" hair. Pretty soon I will be a "Blue Hair" as Larry calls them.
It is also the start of the week of Valentine's Day. We will be delayed in getting our Valentines present from Jodee and all. I think she has been on a mission for hubby to get me another gift of jewelry. I did not let on that I know, but I would seriously bet on it. It is cute that Larry finally gets it that I like getting gifts. He will buy me things if Jodee tells him to...its so sweet. I have a Valentine for each of the girls and for him. He paid for all of them, but that is not the point. The point is that I did not forget his Birthday, got him a card, and a card for the most Romantic Holiday of the year. Yes, it is commercial. Yes I know he loves me all year and does things for me. But, heck, can I help it if I am a Romantic and love getting gifts? So sue me~!
Just wanted to mention that this week is a good one! We were going to go out to Omaha this past weekend, but there is a snow storm brewing. It was supposed to be here last night, but for some reason is taking its own sweet time to arrive. It is a major blowout so bet we will be staying home for the next 2 days at least. Hopefully the storm will be over by next weekend. The forecasters are saying it will be nice and sunny. I hope this time they got it right. I told hubby today that I have to see my Tyler D. I cannot stand it much longer! I have to get that smoochie from him, I just do! Plus the hugs too! I love to see Jodee and Jamie too, better not forget to mention that!
Hugs Gotta go do some more sorting and purging.
Next time folks, hug yourself and your loved ones. Be grateful for them. I am reading a book about the Civil War and it has opened my eyes to not only how important Family is, but also having a safe place to live. With the unsettled way the world is right now, it is a bit shattering to read.
Katie
May 2, 2017
Just found this short post about Larry's Birthday and Valentine's Day. The funny thing? It was written almost exactly 10 years ago now! Wow. Cannot believe how fast the years flit by.
Yes, I write that quite often in my posts. I do so because it is so true. I will try not to use it so often as to get boring. Where am I compared to 10 years ago? I am in a much, much better place. The strange thing is that it took so long for me to "get it". Health issues now are much more complicated, but my attitude is twice as good. I now realize that today is what is important. It might just be all we get! I promise to do better in being happy where I am an going with the flow when needed. I won't go into the details of my health here, but may make a post about it soon. The sun is finally shinning today although the wind is supposed to blow really hard later on and it is only getting to 60 degrees. The poor birds and critters have got to be confused with the cooling down after so many 70 degree days. Heck, it snowed the other day, in April. I remember one year when we had snow I June! So, each nice day we get, we enjoy.
That is all for now, want to get some more of my work printed out.
Hugs, Katie
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Has Anyone seen where January Went?
I am in shock at how fast the days roll by now days. I blink and a week is gone it seems. Larry has been home on unemployment since the end of January, so we do a lot of things together. He has been doing a very good job of holding down the couch. He could win awards, in fact!
We have been spending a lot of time with Lacey and her Family. Very often they need me to fill in when Hunter is sick or Lacey has days off. I am honored that she wants to spend so much time with me, I truly never believed that would happen. I figured after she moved to Manson that I would not see them as much. Then when they bought their home, I was sure we would be left out of their lives. I am so glad we have bonded so well with Hunter. He truly lights up when we walk into the room. I never had that feeling before in my Life. It is a great way to feel, trust me.
I read recently that a person needs to pay attention to their children, that they should light up when you walk into the room as well. I never meant to say that my children did not feel this way. They were always glad to see me at school events. I never felt out of place. Even as I grew larger and larger over the years. I did not realize or care how big I was until much later on, after we had Tyler. How does one ignore oneself so easily and so much? I never let myself see how huge I had become. I was not nice about others who had this problem either. I tended to think "well at least I am NOT that big!" Oh, was I ever wrong. This is not about that though, so back to the reason I am writing, which is about time.
I have been doing a lot of cleaning this past month or so. That is why my days fly by. I have enjoyed it very much and am ready to get rid of a lot of things that have been weighing me down. They say that putting on weight is NOT the issue. There is a problem under the weight that needs to be addressed. I think mine is the fact that I have never felt loved just for me, the way I was/am. I always felt that I did not measure up. I was not as "good" as my parents deserved. Now I may never know where this feeling came from. It may be that I thought this because of a hormone imbalance. I truly believe I am Manic Depressive, and possibly have always been so. I also feel that maybe my mother was too. Maybe she pretended a lot too? I will never know the answer to that question. It is not important now anyway. What is important is to feel good now. I do, for the first time in eons. I feel grounded, happy, and content with where I am. No longer am I pretending to feel good, and inside feeling awful. I do not know if that is due to the medicines I take, or possibly from the research I have been doing on myself. Does every one of us, as humans, feel this way? Do we all succumb to "play acting happiness"? I have a feeling that this might be much truer than anyone has ever believed. Once again, there is no way to prove this...but it is what I think right at this time. Wrong or right. And, that is alright. I finally realize that it is alright to not feel great sometimes. It is part of Life, and as so, it is manageable. I also know that it is not a bad thing to feel this way. I have no guilt any longer. Wow, does that ever feel good to say! And, to mean!!!!
I wanted to comment upon the passing of time. The songs have always said so. As I move forward, I like to think that what I do and say matters. The time I spend writing makes me feel better than anything else I accomplish. Well, except the time spent with my family.
If I could save Time in a bottle. The first thing that I'd like to do......... and so on. Why is it that the people who die young seem to say so much in the few years they are given? They have a lust for Life. They see the true value and jump in with both feet, damn the torpedoes!
My point in this writing is just to realize that my time is ticking by, so I need to pause to remember the good things in my life and to relish them. I have been doing this for a while now and let me tell you I have become happier in the realization that I control when and if I am happy. There is no magic to make things better. I have to take that upon myself. It feels so good to realize it at last and to begin to move onward and upwards. Scared? Hello no, I am not scared. And if I am a little bit, so what? I will move on anyway.
Hugs all, enjoy the week, I know I will! Even if and when my well laid out plans go astray. *wink*
Katie
We have been spending a lot of time with Lacey and her Family. Very often they need me to fill in when Hunter is sick or Lacey has days off. I am honored that she wants to spend so much time with me, I truly never believed that would happen. I figured after she moved to Manson that I would not see them as much. Then when they bought their home, I was sure we would be left out of their lives. I am so glad we have bonded so well with Hunter. He truly lights up when we walk into the room. I never had that feeling before in my Life. It is a great way to feel, trust me.
I read recently that a person needs to pay attention to their children, that they should light up when you walk into the room as well. I never meant to say that my children did not feel this way. They were always glad to see me at school events. I never felt out of place. Even as I grew larger and larger over the years. I did not realize or care how big I was until much later on, after we had Tyler. How does one ignore oneself so easily and so much? I never let myself see how huge I had become. I was not nice about others who had this problem either. I tended to think "well at least I am NOT that big!" Oh, was I ever wrong. This is not about that though, so back to the reason I am writing, which is about time.
I have been doing a lot of cleaning this past month or so. That is why my days fly by. I have enjoyed it very much and am ready to get rid of a lot of things that have been weighing me down. They say that putting on weight is NOT the issue. There is a problem under the weight that needs to be addressed. I think mine is the fact that I have never felt loved just for me, the way I was/am. I always felt that I did not measure up. I was not as "good" as my parents deserved. Now I may never know where this feeling came from. It may be that I thought this because of a hormone imbalance. I truly believe I am Manic Depressive, and possibly have always been so. I also feel that maybe my mother was too. Maybe she pretended a lot too? I will never know the answer to that question. It is not important now anyway. What is important is to feel good now. I do, for the first time in eons. I feel grounded, happy, and content with where I am. No longer am I pretending to feel good, and inside feeling awful. I do not know if that is due to the medicines I take, or possibly from the research I have been doing on myself. Does every one of us, as humans, feel this way? Do we all succumb to "play acting happiness"? I have a feeling that this might be much truer than anyone has ever believed. Once again, there is no way to prove this...but it is what I think right at this time. Wrong or right. And, that is alright. I finally realize that it is alright to not feel great sometimes. It is part of Life, and as so, it is manageable. I also know that it is not a bad thing to feel this way. I have no guilt any longer. Wow, does that ever feel good to say! And, to mean!!!!
I wanted to comment upon the passing of time. The songs have always said so. As I move forward, I like to think that what I do and say matters. The time I spend writing makes me feel better than anything else I accomplish. Well, except the time spent with my family.
If I could save Time in a bottle. The first thing that I'd like to do......... and so on. Why is it that the people who die young seem to say so much in the few years they are given? They have a lust for Life. They see the true value and jump in with both feet, damn the torpedoes!
My point in this writing is just to realize that my time is ticking by, so I need to pause to remember the good things in my life and to relish them. I have been doing this for a while now and let me tell you I have become happier in the realization that I control when and if I am happy. There is no magic to make things better. I have to take that upon myself. It feels so good to realize it at last and to begin to move onward and upwards. Scared? Hello no, I am not scared. And if I am a little bit, so what? I will move on anyway.
Hugs all, enjoy the week, I know I will! Even if and when my well laid out plans go astray. *wink*
Katie
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